Thanks Father

A jog does wonders, feels like me having a conversation with God, thinking through what has been happening and I found the root of the problem. Felt relieved because it can be solved in time. Jogging is the way to go already.

Chaotic VS Peaceful

I am worrying, about many things. I can't set my priorities right, and I seems to be gloomy and unhappy. This feeling seems to be catching up before I actually know it or find a way to deal with it. Things aren't going as smoothly as they are supposed to be, and I screwed it up most of the times, and ended up in guilt and regret. I know this isn't healthy, as I wonder what happen to my good old optimistic self. I know sooner or later, I have to get out of this, so that I can be back in shape again.

I need to differentiate between things that are within my control and those that are not. Those that I can control I keep in mind and will have to try not to keep thinking about it, while those within my control, I have to keep on working on it, to improve the situation. Only when I think out of this straining box, will I find peace and be happy again. Okie, I did try greeting people with a smile today and not let things affect my mood and in everything that I do. (I read something about everyone deserves to be greeted with a smile.)

This is part and parcel of life, and I can only see it as a test to make me stronger, as what doesn't kill me thus make me stronger. I awaits for the time where peace will be mine. (not death certainly) Meanwhile, I try my best to solve the problems.

The Importance of being Earnest

First of all, it is my first time attending the gala event, and also the experience of sitting so close the stage (yes, I saw Ivan's saliva, but that shows how much he is absorbed into his character). Looking at how the show has been packaged, the gentle colours and designed, creating somewhat a soft and tender feel (together with the flower prints), the entire cast in specially tailor-made coats, vests and pants, it made me easy to understand and feel comfortable about the English accent and being a bit intellectual, in the sense that it requires you to catch the words and the meaning in time to understand fully. Well, I would recommend this show because I enjoyed myself, partly because the plot itself is interesting and compact that there isn't a part that bores me, and partly because this show is entirely performed by a full male cast~! The costumes, gestures/body language of the actors can help me differentiat with ease, who is playing the female part, without having to change his voice or go drag. kudos to that. It is also my first time listening to T'ang quartet, after hearing so much about them from my friends. Although I might not be able to appreciate classical music or comment much, the music they played are smoothing to the ears, definitely unlike the types i usually listen.

Anyone who wants to be Earnest?

Yah I got myself another sister

Posers! -_-||

Disclaimer

The taste of the wonderful dinner was not horrible. I need to clarify or else someone's name will be smeared. Hee.. Culinary skill 颇受好评 one lei, how can I say it is bad? Seriously, I enjoyed the meal very much and am really looking forward to the next one. =X

Oh yes, it is just one more month to the exam period and I am certainly tired out somehow by the attacks of the lab reports and mid-term tests and can't wait for the next long weekend which is during the Good Friday period. Okie, it is not that bad actually, just that I need to get in touch with things I miss doing, like enjoying a good jog, doing window shopping, baking little things for my loved ones, or even having a good quality rest, as I refused to make myself a study machine, who simply does studying and nothing else. What a fulfilling university life har?

I would like to thank M.J for praying for me, that he would put me on the top of his praying list, he has always been a trustworthy friend. I remember the times where we used to crack lame and boring chemistry jokes, having long jogs together after school, and talked about things happening around us. And because I told him some of my problems with dealing of family adminstrative matters and how I am lost somehow into the direction where God wants me to be, he thought of me right when the church asked him to pray for a friend. What I am trying to say is that I treasure the sincerity of such a friend, even though we might not be doing many things together like we used to be in the past, yet I want to keep this loyal friend of mine. I am thankful to God for placing many good friends in my life, not only that my life has been enriched, I do hope that I play a part in helping them in times of need, or simply be a blessing to people around me.

Currently, I enjoy what I do, and is contented with what I have. Hence, I strive to keep them by my side, especially the ones whom I love.

Backpost

Taste aside, simple yet meaningful dinner, cooked with lots of love and a little struggle (hehe). This is not something that can be bought by money or anything in the world. I am fortunate and blessed enough to be able to have this.

By the way, every time I mention that it has been a while since I last blogged, and every time I say that, and I have lost track of how precious time has been spent away. I assumed that most of it went into lesson time and revision time for mid term test, which the weird thing is that I am still having mid term tests 2 weeks after the mid term break! I'm not complaining, since there is ample time to revise.

By the way, I've been to Jason Mraz' concert and it was awesome! I am a part-time fan who only have listened to some of his songs and hence some of the songs that he performed during the gig was rather new and never fail to amaze me. A track like 'Mr curiosity' kept me memerized by his wide vocal range, a while ago he was lively and dancing to his upbeat songs, a while later his voice was sexy and appealing (but now I think CM2132 prof has a sexier voice)

Lame

J= me, W= WJ

J: i got the module =)

W: yea
wenjin and chin wei nv get lei

J: yar i heard
can try to appeal lor

W: i think v hard
cos got limited lab spaces

J: so i ask him to apply for sem 4 oso
see how lor
maybe got ppl last minute withdraw
as for wenjin hor

W: true

J: i think he shld just take any UE for special sem
cos he can take the lab during the sem

W: he cannot
he got the forensic mionor also

J: breadth or wad lei?

W: cos our minor mod is on mondays
clash

J: orh..
then he oso apply for sem 4 lor aiyo..~

W: he got ict
haha

J: ...
sux..
aiya.. go for sex change
solve problem le

W: LOL

J: go in may for sex change
then can take sem 4 le

W: lame

I might have gone crazy..

But I didn't. The week so far has been weirdly horrible, that everything seems to crash and I have to clear the mess. However, my conclusion is that some of them are my own mistakes and some simply are just things beyond my own control.

The following is something rather personal and you wouldn't like to hear me rant about it. My mum quit from her job 2 weeks ago and so she should be very free, since she doesn't have to go to work anymore. However, the house still pretty much looks the same, where the same means dirty as ever. I was happy when I overheard her told her friend over the phone that she will have to be a worthy housewife and take care of the house and cook meals. However, for the past 2-3 weeks, she only cooked porridge once for lunch. The rest of the days for me were spent eating from hawker centres, food courts and restaurants, and it has been taking its tolls on me, falling sick and spending lots of money. I handed her 2 stacks of clothes and she only ironed one piece which I needed for last Saturday, and hence I have decided to iron the rest later in the day, as waiting may take me forever. It is not that I hate her or dislike her. I am upset and disappointed about how things turn out this way, to the extent that I call it dysfunctional. From my point of view, being a full-time student and able to perform in studies and able to be financially independent has been a feat. But besides doing that, I have to handle the things in the family, applying for CPF stuffs, clean the house and wash dishes as there is no one else doing it. Did i mention that I'm the one buying groceries and it got depleted rapidly. It is to this point that I feel that I have been taken for granted in the family. Thankfully I am not emotional yet.

As for my sister, she is going to spend the whole of the post O-levels doing nothing, other than roaming Orchard and her friends' places, for all i care. I have run out of ideas of what to deal with her, since she is such a heavy spender, and apparently she doesn't have much to get herself prepared for the new school term, how come she doesn't learn that money doesn't come easy. I was so heart-broken when she simply told Jac that I have money when Jac told her that she will have to cancel her phone plan. (and yes, I really think that things have been going in her way by manipulating, and at the expense of those who care for her.) And hence, from now on, I shall not give in until she realise what she has been doing, which means I'm washing my hands of her, to make her learn. She hasn't learnt that if you want something very much, you have to earn it and not wait for it to be bestowed upon you, not everyday is sunday right?

Well, you may think that hey, they are your family, and you guys are related by blood and you shouldn't do this or that. But I have been taken for granted and I have definitely tried my best in doing many things till the extent that I am feeling so exhausted not over my studies, but over miscellaneous matters which I don't know WTH am I so bothered with. Maybe I asked too much out of myself, that I wanted to make sure that things are going well in the family, and it is making me break.

I hope my mood will lift later, when I meet CK for dinner.

SO fast?

It suddenly occur to me that 2009 is slipping away so quickly that I wasn't able to recall what that has been happening.

"Imagine your life as a masterpiece unfolds. Living life every second of every day as a work of art in progress, taking form in every breath you take."

Ponders..

As I am writing this entry, I’m actually on my way home from Yishun. Since I’ve brought my laptop out so as to show my tuition kids some photos of the marine environment and the organisms living in it, I might as well use it to do something during this journey.

I was rather intrigued by what CK spoke about, talking about having a fan base and how people worshipped their ‘idols’ just because of how well they looked. So I suddenly recall this show, which I have watched recently. In brief, an idol of a popular boy group in Taiwan was asked to blow his breath into a plastic bag for a ‘lucky’ fan to breathe. Well, the fan was felt ecstatic about this rare opportunity and inhaled rapidly when the breath was released. However, the breath was extremely smelly and so the fan thought that she has been tricked into sniffing some foul gases. When it was confirmed that the gas she has inhaled was truly the breath from her idol, she then changed her comment and claimed that the breath was heavenly. Well, my conclusion is that love is blind, to an extent that we lost our minds into justifying things without much thinking. It is from my idol, how can anything related to him be bad? ‘I think, therefore he is.’ is how I felt about this incident.

So, here’s the question., ‘what we all that is living in this world so shallow?’ Are some actions or we able to condone things that we don’t usually accept that against our principles? Where shall the threshold lie then?

As for myself, I think there is always something that is in us that is much more interesting then what is on the outside. Before you know a person, you might be greeted by the physical looks, like how attractive and how alluring the person might be. Although it might be pleasing to the eyes to see an attractive person, is that all you can get out of another person? Don’t we want to know how the personality and attributes of the person is like, his or her likes or dislikes, what he or she thinks about certain issues, what goals and ambitions he or she may hold and what he or she aims to achieve? Or do we simply stop at stage one?

If a pop idol just remain the same and thinks that he or she can continue to gather fans, think of F4 and what happened about shining across like a meteor. It flashes, and left without a trace, and there goes the end of their careers too.

Okay, I’m alighting soon and I’m getting dizzy and slightly nauseous from all this typing. Tata.

A Brownie Affair

I came up with the craziest idea yet, while doing nothing since tuition was postponed last minute. I might want to set up a brownie blogshop. However, that requires some planning(and some procrastination + delay). This would be a good chance to force myself to bake again and regain my long lost baking skills. Hope it become formidable again.

I need to stop procrastinating for many things.

Anyway, i learnt 八仙过海，各显神通 today, and realise it isn't of much use in daily life. =(

Khoon, We're proud of you!

On Friday night, CK, Sy and I overcame the almost endless flights of stairs to Old school, for the Random Blends exhibition by the department for New Media NUS, where we were greeted with loads of Khoon's photos on almost every wall. His work looks good, with a great blend of colors representing the societies, and his expressions, about the different emotions that one may have, which are all intertwine with each other. At the end of the day, we are trying to find out in reality, which is the real us? So we had an enjoyable time, looking at many artistic shots.
A closer look at the work
Okie.. we need to camwhore.
Khoon explaining to the guest what his work is about.
Group shot (ASH)

谚语 － 一天一句

Bought myself something today so as to improve my command of Chinese language. Not only do I want to be proficient/fluent in the language, I want to speak with better vocabulary too. These books are small and handy, hence I shall buy the other series when I'm done with this one.

Let's take a look at the first one:

八九不离十
解释：十分接近实际的情况。 （very close;about right)
造句：从你脸上那慌张的神色，就能让人猜个八九不离十了。 (well I don't like this example.)

How about.. 我认为事情就是这样发生的，不然也八九不离十了。