I'm Back

我不是背后，我。。回来了！

Glad to be back on this sunny island though I can't stand the warm weather already. Yawn, gonna go to bed soon. Just want to talk about something just before I forget, that I really think i should go overseas more. Well, maybe absence makes the heart grows fonder applies to family too. No matter what, dad 死死要 come and fetch me even though I touched down like 1.30am due to some technical fault which caused us to swap plane. And the house has been tidied up and there are many new up-grades and additions everywhere which I am delighted. And dad bought me a 15RM backpack from his and mum's malacca trip. (Don't think I will use it often (thank god it wasn't expensive) but I was really grateful)

Alright, gonna sleep and tomorrow I shall welcome 2009!

生日快乐

祝我生日快乐。一直都认为没什么人会记得我的生日，毕竟我是多么的渺小，也不重要。但我很感动，不仅有好朋友用手机传简讯给我，还有有心人在facebook寄短讯，也有人寄了电邮过来。收集这么多的祝福，已经是最好的礼物了。更不能忘的还有两个小型的庆祝会。

好吧，希望我的愿望成真，既然每年都是一样的。
只有今年贪心一点，许了多一个愿。

Off i go

The highly anticipated trip is finally here but I'm feeling so 不舍得. Beijing will be cold and well, freezing yet i think it would be a good experience for me to experience birthday and Christmas in another place, another climate. Lets hope the trip is going to be a fruitful and safe one. =]

P/S: Snow white was splendid.

あしたの空 (Tomorrow's sky)

While watching SPEED's music video on Channel MTV,

Mum: 我要看那个。。(she always assume that we will know what she want to watch and we always know, somehow)

Me: 等一下，让我看完这个。她们是我中一中二的时候喜欢的。

Mum: SPEED对吗？(我有吓到，大概是我之前太疯SPEED了，她才会有印象。）她们这么久了还在？

Me: 她们解散了八年，现在又重组了。（顿时她们使我好骄傲哦。）

Mum: 都认不出来了，只有这个还没有变很多。（指着hiroko。）

我的眼泪差一点飙了出来，因为我有太多的回忆是和SPEED一起拥有的。她们复出了，我感动了。

I thought I lost you

Went clubbing.
Played mahjong.
Won money.
Collected my reference letter.
Yawned.
Bought a christmas album.
Watched Bolt.
Ate that different restaurants.
Ate buffet.
Burped.
Visited Science Centre.
Waiting for Snow White.
Listening to Tanya Chua.

This precious week has been well spent, doing things that I enjoy, meeting up with friends and relatives. Even though i still think there isn't enough time, there's always time when i come back i hope.

I found that i did something that contradicted my way of thinking, but yet i have condone its existence, perhaps it is something unavoidable. Something like never say never. Something along the line where love cannot be forced. I believe in sow and reap, that there will be a good ending if one puts in effort into what he or she does. Sadly, I guess this doesn't applies to love. I tried to be a good pleaser, maybe still imperfect and have many flaws, but I did try hard to keep things going. In the end, there still isn't a better half who can give a hug when i feel down. So i realise that if there is no interest, no matter how much you do will go to waste since the other party will not appreciate. I guess everyone will be guilty of this too, having to reject someone cause there is really no interest other than being just friends.

Still listening to Tanya Chua.
Counting down the days to going China.. Just 2 more days.

Issue of Voyeurism

Much joy have been brought into our boring mundane life every since the release of a series of reality television show. From magnificent singing and dancing in "American Idol" to "So you think you can dance" to experiencing the dog-eat-dog world in "The Apprentice" and "Survivor" to the recent entertaining and bitchy ones like "America Next top model" and "I survived a japanese gameshow".

However, this has made many think that looking into people's lives and probing into their matters is something ordinary. This morning, I read the newspaper, at the stomp.sg section. I felt quite disturbed as blog entries of a 10-year old was captured and submitted by someone who just happen to read it. The entry was regarding the kid having to deal with stressful school work and still cope with some housework that the mum fail to do. Another piece of article is a blog entry by a NS-man about his complaint about things he encountered during NS. But isn't blog supposed to be something personal (i mean for friends and family who you know) and not something to be shown to the rest of the world. If that is the case, I am pretty sure that I can come up with a blog newspaper everyday showing interesting entries by various bloggers.

Now, many people own cameras and are able to take photos anytime and anywhere. Hence, anyone can be a paparazzi, and whatever we do can be captured and magnified without us knowing it. So, where's the privacy?

我是 Veron (Oink)

This is the favorite line of the day. Since I have just ended my examination today, I try to plan many programs with friends and family before I go on my China trip. As for today, it is dinner with Pathos group at Settlers' cafe. Thank goodness, we are their first customer despite Man jun for being late for half an hour and that we did not make any reservation. On the way, we were talking about how the examinations are; I feel good that I have been able to relate to them since I am the senior and have been thru' what they have been thru' this semester. Hence, I can tell them my experience, things to watch out for and stuffs like that. And we were commenting about Man Jun being 慢 for everything, since it is already part of her name. This is not her first time late for meet up although Belle reminded her yesterday. Throughout the games, we found that she is slow for quite a bit of things. Another fact is that veron is actually a pig. We played snorata, where each of us has an animal and have to think of a nice name/sound for it. And Jun min actually got a pig and named it "我是 veron". Well, since the name is funny and so easy to remember, Jun min ended up as the loser of the name. It was quite hilarious when we call out "我是 Veron" every now and then during the game.

Well, i truly enjoyed myself and it made me realise one thing. I did want to come out of the hermit crab's shell, and I needed some confidence and effort to organise such outings so that I can stay in touch with friends.

Anyway, didn't want to talk much about examinations because the pressure is there to maintain my CAP but over is over, and that I shouldn't worry about it and see how it goes then. Holidays just started and I already see that I have lots to accomplish, like settling my SEP administration matters and to pack for the trip, and I have yet changed rmb! *yawns* this sucks..

Now, back to 家好月圆.. =]

Energy

Remember the time where you stored up your energy, awaiting for something new to come as you enter a new phase of your life? I remembered, as i was jogging before dinner, how i wish for a change, harboring hopes of falling in love, learning new skills or knowing new friends, as well as getting a well-paid job. i was lucky, i developed my passion for teaching after national service and soon i got bonded and have no worries with my tuition fee and can be financially independent. I have seen so much more, knowing new friends, new language, and toured different countries during the holidays. Then comes falling in love, although i believe in one is able to reap what he or she sows, i tried but nothing really happen. Nevertheless, there are sweet memories to be kept among the pains. Seems like for now, i have been exhausted, so now going to charge up my power, not for a fiery relationship, not something like 'love you till death' or what, just simple relationship, someone who can give warmth and be the first i would turn to when i want to share my joy and woes, my dreams and hopes.

Then just as i was admiring the nice sunset i got blessed with after the jog, a rather disturbing bus ride happened. A bus before mine was doing turning and blocked 2,3 lanes, hence my bus got stopped by the traffic light. As i was alighting, my earphones got pulled out as it was stuck to some guy's bag who refused to budge. And i had to wait quite some time for my turn at the supermarket as the couple got misleaded by the offer for lays potato chips.

Tomorrow is the final paper, then i get what is mine, freedom and the holidays. Gonna meet up with my Pathos people for dinner and hopefully settlers' have space for us. Today's paper went pretty well, even though i wasn't really studying, and was still feeling queasy from alcohol during the party. =]