我海角了

Still have some parts which I don't understand like how come Tomoko fell in love so suddenly with xiao Fan and why the bed scene just happen so abruptly and ended so suddenly too. How is the the grandma and the tin box related to the main characters in the show? And why do we see so little of Shino and Pei Zhen? So many questions!

However, i love the scenes, the greens and the hills. Taiwan indeed is a beautiful place, one of my favorites to visit again and again, culture rich and colorful scenery.

Anyway, we celebrated Chin wei's birthday! So now i am the only one who is still rightfully 21 in the clique, how i love to be 21 every year, not too old for new things and to be adventurous and yet not too young to have a say in what I want, and my freedom of choice. Had lunch at Crystal jade and gave him the sweetest birthday ever after having desserts at Swensens. He could not finish his dessert at all because it was far too sweet! I wish the few of us could have more chance of going out together, chilling, and not have studies talk when we see each other. Alright, time to kill the books.

Spin the CD

Bought mayday's album today, and it is about to make me cry. Starting from the first track, which about missing someone dear, the lyrics are so well written. Afraid of being alone, afraid of being in a quiet place, afraid of friends' care and concern, and most of all, afraid of hearing the person's news. That's how it is like when one tries to forget a person and not miss the person, but end up missing badly though. (I'll try not to miss) And the second track is to learn how to live life your own way, which is something i just formulated while studying world religion. Amazing isn't it? Studying many religions actually helped me attained certain enlightenment. haha.. And for the first paper today, when others are already midway into the exams.. Anyways, after taking it, i realised that i shouldn't have spent so much time to study, since the results will be the same anyway, i tried and i think i can pass, and hopefully it will turn out rather fine. I will work my best for the other 2 cores since they are my last bets and I have more confidence in them as well.

Feel stronger now, so much to accomplish yet so little time. Must hold on to my way of life.

By the way, I need to detox.. too much junk food during exam period!

Terlambat

Spend my weekend with my relatives, had fun and a tiny little bit of guilt for abandoning my beloved clayden (it is an organic chemistry textbook of 5-6cm thickness). We played mahjong and had brunch at 鼎泰丰 @ Paragon at around 10 plus in the morning. After that we went to the marina barrage for sightseeing and took quite a bit of photos of the place and camwhored too. We hit the mahjong table again and awaits for dinner. Grandma cooked curry chicken and vietnamese rice paper roll. Yum Yum. *pat on protruding tummy* And we watched the 45th anniversary show on television. I teared a bit, mixed feelings, joy and also sadness. Joy for how television has impacted my life so much, and I can remember many characters on stage, recall back what happened back then when I was still watching the show. I was touched by how some of the artistes dedicated their lives into showbiz, burning themselves (especially the older generation who have aged alot, or some who has already passed on) for the benefits of the masses. (Of course some are stuck up and proud of themselves for having nothing.) And look at the time! I am still online writing this. I ought to be sleeping. Gonna do some hardcore s.... studying tomorrow morning!

Dead

Spotted this outside the central library while studying..

Intensity

when breaking point comes, small things become intensified and issues that you thought were long gone arise again. My life could have been better, could have been less tough. I always tell people that who and how I am now is because of what I have gone through, and I am sure everyone has their own stories to tell. For example, I have to clean up my room and my home more, since my sis does nothing but to dirty the place. 'LAZY' is smacked in as my family's middle name and I am frustrated cause there is nothing I can do to change it and I am stuck in it. I was nice enough to let her use my laptop and soon after that the wireless network can't be used and she says she has nothing to do with it. Maybe she is telling the truth and maybe I am jinxed. Just because I am having my reading week and not studying, my mum asks me to change all the bed sheets and wash the dishes, while she still enjoys her karaoke and mahjong. Well I don't blame her, but how come they din realise that I have my own things to deal with as well. Although I always show that I am a tough cookie, that doesn't mean i don't crumble. Tomorrow I need to hit the books already, and start to care less. Really care less.

An SMS tells a lot

Yes it's true, although i was laughing about this whole incident, and still felt amused, deep down i feel from my heart that this tells something very important. Basically i received a 'Happy birthday' message that is so generic (okie i am guilty of it also) that you think that it was an auto message sent when the alarm for the day rings (get my idea lar). perhaps the only problem with it is that it is sent far too early, how about one month? puzzled but without hesitation, i replied and asked if the sender have gotten the date wrong. I chuckled when the person claimed that it's the wrong person not the wrong date.

Question. First, if you got it wrong, why don't you admit in the first place since it is so obvious? Is it a pride thing? Second, can imagine what it is like when someone that close to you before actually remember your birthday wrongly? It does tells how important you really are to the person, as important as a misplaced memory. ( Don't ask me about your birthday, you know i have memory as good as a goldfish, P/S they have memory of a freaking long 3 seconds! =o] )Finally, actually i don't really care about it, just that i was alarmed by this incident. If something comes so naturally, it will definitely not be the first time ya..

Anyway this entry serves no purpose to humiliate anyone, just that it is part of my realization of one's easier way out.

Battle begins

Ya.. it is Monday already, and so I shall concentrate on revising for the examinations and play lesser. (apparently I played mj and spent much time structuring this blog) Nevertheless, need to tell myself that Year 2 is the most important part of my studies, more of the CAP part, rather than the interest part. Need to maintain or pull up the CAP to ensure that I can graduate with at least a second upper class. Of course, people might say that just do your best and that will be enough. But the reality hurts as we face the truth, that to a certain extent, this figure is the only thing that measures your academic success. Doing well is not enough, one has to do well enough to be better than others.

Ohh.. We love the system don't we? (puke)